Radical Health ND

As the dust finds its way back to the forest floor after a whirlwind rolls through I feel my nervous system settling once more into a less activated state .

The past few weeks have taken me back to a time when I ran around the island and lived mostly out of my car .. I recognized rot in our apartment as the trigger to my seemingly constantly triggered immune system and so I decided to move out and live on the go for a bit .. a familiar place of staying at the farm and on the whim of spontaneity. It was a difficult balance with study and shifts but felt nourishing for my soul finding solitude for the first time in quite a while and sinking deeper into the true meaning of home

It was only a month but I explored lifetimes delving deeper into the roots of my fear of the dark .. finding answers in past life regression meditations and vivid dreams .. “the fear is just courage becoming known” .. the shadow coming to light and witnessing a lifetime of checking over my shoulder for someone creeping up in the night disappearing once awareness around its roots is brought to the surface with the affirmation “you are safe” sinking deeper into my bones . The coyotes alchemize from sources of unease to respected protectors .

It’s funny isn’t it .. how much we can accumulate without even realizing it . Until it’s time to move and be forced to touch every item . Each with their own encapsulated energy .. some deeper than others .. gifts reminding us of loved ones and articles of clothing holding memories that come rushing back once your hands grasp the thread with eyes closing flashing back to laughter or hard times .. what we chose to carry with us and which ones we tuck away or recycle onward . It’s a beautiful process that feels right on time .

Women supporting women is healing for the collective . No shaming . No jealousy . Just holding space for each other to show up vulnerably and be met with love . Feeling forever grateful for the women in my life that encourage me to be the best version of myself and show up just as I am . Untamed and embraced . It feels healing to the collective .

BOTH AND .. why do we always have to be so reductionistic ? Why not embrace the gray area ? The in between .. forget this one side or the other . It’s so boring that way . Our differences are what make the mosaic that much more beautiful . Sure bigotry should be spoken out against but assuming someone believes something based on something mostly unrelated is unfair and divisive . I choose openness . I choose love .

Keeping up with the Joneses .. dear lord make it stop . What’s the gotdamn rush ? People settle for what doesn’t serve their soul . Fear based actions constantly in control . What if we trusted a little more ? That what aligned deepest was what was in store .

Symptoms as messages . If we take every stomach ache . Every snuffy nose .. every itch and scratch . Every sad spell and cover it up so the whispers no longer are loud enough we miss the opportunity to commune with our bodies with our cells – we tell them instead you aren’t important and unfortunately oftentimes we tell them sorry you’ll have to talk louder . Until they scream . That screaming shows up for me as hives . In the past I’ve tried steroids and pharmaceutical antihistamines – the message got louder . I started to listen . That time in particular it was clear to me that it was gut related – I felt pulled to do a deeper dive and found out that I had colon polyps that the doctor told me would have become cancer by the time I was 30 if I hadn’t gotten them removed . I was 28 . That was a clear lesson for me to continue listening to my symptoms as blessings – as divine communication of my vessel with my spirit . This time the message feels more emotional – a teenager wound that is requiring a lot of reminders that I am safe and that I have her back . She is loved . I forgive her for anything and everything . I listened to a podcast the other day about ancestral medicine and the shaman spoke to the belief in the tradition he practices that all disease comes from one cause – disconnection and that all healing comes from finding reconnection . In what ways can we find reconnection ? Through meditation , connection with community , with purpose , through breath work , through stillness, through dream work, through time in nature, through movement, through journaling , through gardening , through art .. the list goes on . Take time – we don’t have enough of it to hurry .

The Foundations of Health . Hydration – access to clean water that is alive and rich in minerals so that our body’s can hold on – hydrating foods – hydrating our skin . Water is life. ~ Food – access to clean and nourishing foods. Organic seasonal local . Energetically alive . Food is medicine . Cooking our foods . Infusing love and gratitude into our foods while cooking . Eating slowly and being present with our meals and those we choose to share them with . Choosing color and embracing diversity . ~ Movement . Daily movement . Intuitively – yin and Yang practices for movement . It is a gift to be able to move our divine vessels . Embrace it! Love your body . Listen to what it is asking for and know that some form of movement be it a gentle stretch or stroll is important to incorporate daily to help with oxygenation , metabolism , brain chemistry and to move stagnant energies . ~ Connection . Connection to self connection to purpose . To community . To nature ~ Stress relief . Coping mechanisms that allow stress to move through the body and alchemize rather than stuffed down and stored . ~ Access to clean air . Air quality . Air flow . Unfortunately Earth is becoming more polluted and in a lot of places the air quality is totally compromised . Supporting our vital organs to deal is toxic burden and oxidative stress is one of the most helpful things we can do for our health . Some things are out of our control . Mitigate where you can . Air filters help . Taking care of your lungs does too . (Vital organs = liver , kidneys , brain , lungs, heart) I think the gut should be added to this list …

Working with our parts .. the different versions of ourselves . The different humans we have been . The different emotions we have felt . All equally worthy of being loved . Connecting more recently with my inner teenager . Through allowing the sensations and “symptoms” to express themselves it allows for them to not be shoved away – deeper- in a way that almost encourages them to come back or “try harder next time” sorta way .

The constriction in my chest . A familiar feeling . Harder to breathe – encouraging deeper breaths to avoid the shallow ones taking over. When did it start? What’s it need? To be heard and met with love .. a safe space and support . Safety

Speaking dreams into existence . I dream of a safe and healthy happy home . An oasis to return to . Something nourishing to the nervous system in every way . Somewhere where I can find movement and security . A comfortable bed that I can sleep well and wake rested in every night . A fridge with healthy whole food that I can cook and eat in peace with my love . I am dreaming of space with intentional items and clarity. I am dreaming of healthy gardens . One with foods and medicine I can eat the other with my plants to nestle into rich earth that is built up and mixed with nutrients from my compost . I am dreaming of thriving in a space where I can focus and absorb what I am learning and excel at my school work. I am dreaming of daily rituals that serve my highest self – starting when I wake up and wrapping up before bed . I am dreaming of reconnecting with dream work . I am dreaming of my liver functioning optimally and my cycle being consistent and feeling fully confident knowing my fertility window and avoiding pregnancy for now. I am dreaming of having balance between yin and Yang and having time to heal . I dream of having no hives and still continuing to take care of myself . I dream of having a stable foundation and being able to show up for others in a healing capacity . I dream of wellness . I dream of peace . I dream of living in a sustainable way that allows me to create a savings that I can use in the future. I dream of my family thriving and all of our relationships being loving and peaceful and encouraging for our highest good . I dream of my friends thriving and finding prosperity and peace . I dream of a healthy community . I dream of an awakening . I dream of land back . I dream of all humans respecting earth and finding education that teaches them more about the natural world and our own bodies . I dream of helping others connect back with nature and ourselves . What are you trying to bring along to cultivate for the future ?

Ideal morning : wake around sunrise fully rested . Write down dreams . Water plants . Meditate in the garden . Drink lemon water . Make tea . Stretch . Make to do list for the day . Take honey for a walk . Swim or contrast shower . Start the day

Ideal evening : dinner . Walk at sunset . No more screens. Clean up kitchen and tidy up home . Light candles . Contrast shower if needed. Nebulizer . Breath-work . Read or write . Ptfo

food shopping list : all organic : blueberries – wild if possible , yogurt of some sort – cocojune plain is what I’ve been enjoying most lately . Pasture raised eggs to hard boil , flax meal , chia seeds, aloe, green tea – no sugar added , green apples , mixed nuts – raw no salt . Avocado , hemp seeds , cayenne , cinnamon , turmeric , raw ginger , cucumber , beets , carrots , greens , micros , wild salmon – no color added!! , pasture raised chicken, frozen ground pasture turkey and bison , regeneratively raised steaks , garlic, onion , ghee , spring water , lemons . The more color the better