Radical Health ND

I crave the woods . I crave silence and birds chirping and rivers flowing and breezes passing through the branches scattering scents of pine . In peace . I crave the golden glow of grass and winged creatures dancing from one bloom to the next . I crave simplicity and slowing down . I crave slow cooked meals and warm broths . I crave the crackling of fireplaces and wool socks . I crave wooden countertops and hot baths and candles . I crave good books and restful days . I crave hugs and laughter with my oldest friends and family . I crave beach days in the spring with sweaters on . Muddy walks with bare feet . Living in flow with nature .

Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong anywhere . Other times I do .

What’s that saying? The more you know the more you realize you don’t know shit . That shits true

Stresssssss anxietyyyyyy ughhhhh we have a big exam tomorrow and once again I feel like I’m being chased by a tiger . What are the best ways to cope when stress feels high ? I am safe . Breaks to go walk and get fresh air . Laughing . Preparing . Getting enough sleep. Eating whole foods . Positive self talk . You are enough . You are more than capable . I got this . We got this .

Why’s anybody gonna be jealous of other people ? Especially of those closest to us? If one of us wins we all win . Stoke and support for my people forever .

Balance .. yin nd yang highs and lows outward inward

On focus .. harnessed .. one thing at a time . Bringing our brain back to the current moment . Training ourselves to be here now .

I’m having like the best week ever I’m so freaking grateful . My patients are getting better . Foundations of health make a world of difference . I found out I’m going to be able to use a beautiful lil space back east this summer to do body work out of . I get to sell my oils ina Couple weeks at this cutie lil event. And on top of all that I’m in a tub! And Got to hang with one of my best friends last night and she got hooked up with a pent house situation downtown that has an amazing view of The bay and a sick lil desk that makes it really easy to get work done . Resting and restoring today . soaking in Epsom . Drinking herbal broths . Reading . Napping . Life’s coocoo .

On nourishment ; not always about what we’re taking in but how we’re taking things in that matters most .

Wind down at night and a slow rise in the morning

I’ve been doing more weight training classes lately and my joints are feeling so supported it’s pretty rad . Realized I have pretty mobile joints and that yoga as my main movement lately has been wearing on my knees and hip. Balancing with strengthening to help the muscles hold the joint in the right space is feeling really good .

Started doing the elimination challenge last week . I recommend it to patients pretty often so wanted to fully give it a go myself . I’ve attempted it a few times but haven’t followed through and this time it’s feeling really good and nicely aligned . Focusing on whole foods , hydration , movement that feels good , and not drinking or eating processed food and it feels good as long as I’m prepared enough with meals .

Enantiodromia- to flow backwards . Back our roots . Back to the feminine . Cycles and nature . Back to inner knowing .

To accept all parts of ourselves . Embrace our shadows . Meeting every aspect with love and giving it a seat at the table .

Air :: the spaces between the things unseen

Focus isn’t just a thing we magically have . It needs to be cultivated . Train your brain . One thing at a time with breaks in between .

Yoni steams are good for the soul . Herbs like calendula lavender rose chamomile are all nourishing tonifying and soothing to tissues and beautiful for incorporating into steams . Helpful for chronic infections and general wellness . Give it a freaking try. Time to connect back with the womb and pelvic floor . In gratitude with love .

External validation . Reflecting on how we’re basically trained growing up to rely on this for feedback to know if we’re doing alright (grades report card etc) but to learn how to check in with yourself – to be alright with someone not being up your ass and still knowing you bring value to the world by being you . You are loved . You are appreciated . You matter . Even if someone else doesn’t tell you this we should be able to know it as the truth just because we exist . Stop waiting for someone else to tell you . Know it for yourself . Remind yourself on the daily .

Failures cool . Keep trying . Fail again . Learn something new . Try a new approach . We have so much fear and judgment around failure . Sometimes we gotta get knocked on our ass to learn the path and get further down it the next time.

Lasting change comes with persistence . No such thing as quick fixes. Maybe a fast shift but the pendulum always swings . all these continuums . can’t have the good without the bad . Illumination without the dark . It’s about finding and supporting a balance . Feeling into the balance .

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A call back to the feminine . Back to yin . Back to the collective . To slowing down and nurturing ourselves and each other . To warmth and laughter and hugs. To creativity . To expression and emotion . A call to rest . To listen deeply and trust .

So many of us look for someone outside of ourselves to heal us . Your best healer is yourself . Not saying we shouldn’t turn to others for support but Your body knows what it wants . We just have to listen and act on it .

Reconnecting with intuition;; there’s a practice or law or knowing I heard about recently . I can’t remember what it’s called but I think it comes from Ayurveda . It’s an understanding that our body innately knows immediately if it wants something or doesn’t . The second you pick something up you can hear the answer . Before the thinking mind creeps in . I just remembered ..

Been doing EMDR every week for a while now . Pretty fucking satisfying to see how many shifts I can feel . But with those shifts a lot has come up . Feeling more aware of the anxiety in my body lately and it’s been really challenging . I masked it for a long time with weed and booze and haven’t been smoking or drinking so trying to learn new ways to cope . It’s hard ! Recognizing that a lot of that anxiety feels like it’s coming from my inner child . Wondering if that might be because of some of the shit I’ve been processing with the EMDR and trauma that was a part of me not having those tendencies to cling to and express through anymore ? That feels pretty true . Haven’t done an inner child meditation in a while . Maybe a good thing to revisit .

Switching around my language to not create stories for myself . This discomfort in the lower left quadrant on my abdomen has been a catalyst for a while now for me to seek support with my health. I had a pelvic floor therapy session a couple weeks ago and the practitioner expressed that she felt that the tension in the area was actually an energy that I was carrying with me that wasn’t mine – she described it at a cord . I did what she recommended for cord cutting visualizations and practices and felt a release from the sensation but it returned again not too long after .. it feels like something I’ve identified with for a while now and I’m having a hard time fully letting it go for some reason. . It feels like it’s opening up more.. It makes me wonder about weak points in our fields .. pathways that people tend towards based on genetics or family karmas or their own personal lives and lessons . Thinking of them as “weak” points or vulnerabilities that are asking for support and to be heard . But at what point does it become something you’re trying too hard to hear instead of letting it pass through like a ripple smoothing back out at the surface .. we really are fluid beings .. when our focus is so intent on one area maybe it’s like causing a ripple over and over around in that one place in the pond – never letting it return to quiet . Place the attention on what you are trying to cultivate . A communication between sides . A universal humming of the system . Peace and balance . Going to focus on the right lower quadrant every time I feel the left side pop up and see how that shifts things .

It’s kind of funny to me but also kinda weird and sad in a way . When I tell people what I’m studying and that I’m going to get a doctorate for it their energy kind of shifts .. it seems like it brings up insecurities for people sometimes .. We know some cool things about the body but doctors are just people trying to figure it out too . A lot of them just got good at acting like they have it figured out. You are always the one that knows your body best . So much of health is about remembering how to listen . hearing it and actually listening . Not just always shutting up the call when the ringer gets loud .

What if we stopped basing time on numbers and got back to basing it on the cycles in nature .. on the sun moon and stars . On the seasons . How would that shift things ? I think it would help put things in perspective a little more . Slow us down . Bring us back Incorporate our lives back into the systems in line with natures rhythms . Oooweee yes please .

Sometimes I have these nights when I lay and feel my body super comfortable but my mind goes and it’s hard to find sleep . But I feel like it’s on those nights that I have more epiphanies unhinge . Random thoughts collide . It seems to happen around the new moon .

Fascia and tension lines .. the ripple effect across our bods equivalent to the mycelia networks in the soil . Pain on the shoulder caused by a knee injury years prior .. lung restrictions caused by unprocessed grief . We forget how fluid we are . Getting wound up . Let it flow .

The way we sleep has a massive influence on our physical body and posture . It ripples out .

I had been leaning into my human design based recommendation of eating the same things daily .. was reflecting on how good that had been feeling but noticed a shift in what I was craving for each meal . Then realized it’s spring now and thought of how nice it might feel to eat the same dishes with each season . Craving yogurt and fresh berries lately w seeds and cinn. For breaka

Went for a walk with a friend the other day and she was telling me about ;Initiating movement from the pelvic floor – this is what was found in a study on high performance athletes . All of their movements were coordinated starting with the pelvic floor . If the pelvic floor muscles aren’t acting together then this could be where overall dysfunction is coming from in other parts of the body too. And how many of us are disconnected from this part of our body ? Stored shame , insecurities etc .. it deserves so much more respect and love and attention .

Ive been having dreams for years now every so often that someone shows up where I’m at with a screw loose and a gun on them. Ready to start shooting everyone there . Everyone there are close friends and family of mine . No one else has a gun. I just keep wishing in the dream that I had a gun or that I knew how to shoot a gun to keep everyone I love safe.

There’s this one scene in Yellowstone that really stood out to me . When they’re teaching the youngest kid how to shoot and the responsibility that comes along with having a gun and the heaviness that is in taking another life . I feel like we’ve lost that respect for other lives .We’re getting too numb . I feel like we gotta be a little nicer to each other .

Something that’s been coming up a lot lately is this idea around porn culture really not accurately representing the female libido and what is satisfying to most women. Men seem confused and I think it’s ending up with expectations that don’t match reality . One way this might show up is through spontaneous arousal where guys might wake up with a hard on and expect their partner to be immediately ready to go because that’s what porn portrays when really most women need to be turned on and feel safe .. not just through stimulation to the clit but through kissing our neck or rubbing feet or whatever the fuck feels good first . So many women just say yes to sex because they feel bad saying no when our body’s still don’t want it . We don’t have to always say yes and we should be able to speak our needs and have them heard.

March was good to me . Thank you . Just finished another quarter I’ve got a little break to romp around . Going to hang here this time . Continue grounding down and enjoying our home while we’re here .